wired in

Hi chat. i've been feeling lately like im too wired in-both to the internet and energy wise. i find myself engaging in perpetual positive feedback loops that lead me to spiral and are only worsened by the internet. people were not meant to know and see this many other people on a daily basis like we do online.

the urge to stay online and stay connected and look at accounts i definitely should not look at as frequently as i do is dangerously strong. im resorting to getting a dumb phone. i have planned it all out to maintain what i "need" for my day to day while making it not too much of a burden to reach me. i have no grand illusions that this will "fix" any issues or make me reach a zen state-i just think i need to do it. its the natural progression of my self-fulfilling prophecy. i just cant stay afloat like this any longer there needs to be changed i need to unplug.

i watched the life of chuck for the first time as of half an hour ago of writing this. i wont spoil it for my movie-pilled heads out there, but the first third involves a world where the internet, power, and general things we take for granted now slowly disppear. it made me think about how people really did live without the internet and got by fine. the world has become so connected 24/7 that the idea of not having your phone on you with instant access to Everything is dangerously foreign. it made me realize that the pre-internet world is one i will never know or experience.
my entire life i have been plugged in and powered on. when youve got a rig going for this long your cable management gets sloppy-unplug it all.


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